Monday, October 19, 2009

A Map of Us Would Have to Include What You Did

A Map of Us Would Have to Include What You Did

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I hope you don’t read this             but you never read much when we were married            so why would you start now        did that sound bitter             good

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Because         we should have fought more       I should have been caught looking at other women more              I should have thrown things and scared you                what I mean is                            I should have left before you left

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It took me a long time for me to say this without crying            a lot of time talking to myself              and a lot of time trying not to talk to myself            and a lot of time talking to you as if you were there                   a lot of time on my therapist’s couch

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We should have never gotten married

‘cause you’re sooooo               gay!

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Someday this will all be behind us             I mean me